I'm a scrappy little thing
I never update this journal...maybe it's because I'm boring. or maybe it because I'm lazy. No it's difinitly both.
Life after BFF show is...a bit different. I thought being recognized in malls, and on the streets once and a while was weird just from being one of these '"internet people" BUT I had no idea what it would be like after a reality show. I wont dare go to passadena CA anymore I was attacked.
But it is pretty cool I must admit! It's very interesting going out to get a latte now. FunFun
I'm going to Philly soon, 19th-22nd to do a ton of shoots! I need to go shopping for shoot gear really bad...thankfully I have some awesome hair/makeup/wardrobe stylist helping me out on most of them. BUT I do like to throw in my own insane outfits of course.
I meet soo many awesome people in LA that im stoked on...one of which did this photo of me... ( which myspace keeps deleting)
I can't wait to go back to the west coast, I really do need to just move there. I fly there so often it seems like I might as well.
So I have noticed i don't get along with girls very often, well ok I dont get along with one actually. I would name her, but I wouldn't give her the privilage of people linking back to her petty buzznet page. and getting hits. ( dont you wish dear) Maybe it's just this one girl but the jealousy, and drama filled..everything, and gossip,paranoya, oh god it's just too much. if a person constantly assumes your "shit talking" them and always bitches at you like your dating them, and your just friends, and you tell them over and over IM not chill out. They of course dont believe you. it's really not worth it to me anymore, its more headache than its worth.
Dear (I wouldn't dare give you the press) If im not banging you, Im not dealing with this shit anymore.
I wrote a long blog on myspace about a situation that went on...which is private because I know she would sit in her ( still parents house) and cry...
but heres a little for you..
"Also I would never let some fucking dude sit there a yell at me like a dog, maybe your insecurities have lead you to beleive it's ok to be treated like that..not me. You put your head down and take it, so I put my fists up and defended both of us, and now your mad?
Where's your pride? I would rather defend myself against a discusting,worthless,women abusing prick ( which he is) than ever in my lifetime sit there like a child and take it. Your a victim, and you choose to be. the reason why is because you can't stand up for yourself because inside you know your lonely and want someone there. Even if he sexually abuses you, threatens you, and sits there screaming in your face.
I stuck up for you against him, and now your angry? I soppose you wanted me to instead of punching him twice. sat down and let you look like a needy dog, with it's "owner" commanding it. So embarassing."
So yeh I punched a dude in the face twice this week...it was really funny.
Anyways Tomorrow I'm gonna go shopping for a leather jacket and hats from the 40's...I'm into it.
also I cant stop eating rice pudding, all day and all night. I really cant stop. I buy tubs and tubs of it.
Have you tried rice pudding? Are you as obsessed as me?