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zui

I have bad news guys... i wont be doing warp tour this year, the company I was going with decided they arnt going to do it this year...im soo sorry



zui

xoxox

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stoked?

I am finally back in action I wish i could tell everyone about where I was and what I did but I can't just yet, but you'll see for yourself soon enough all I can say is it was the best experience I've ever had and I'm so glad I did it! I meet awesome people ..one person i thought I would never get to spend time with and I'm soooo glad i did. Shes so sweet and caring and It was just so fucking cool!


When I get the word that I can talk about it I will!



xoxoxo zui

I leave for L.A tomorrow.. I don't know when i'll be back. I won't have phone or internet for a long time, this is your heads up. I had a dream a few nights ago that  I was driving on a long bridge over an ocean..I looked to my right and saw a plane falling. On the side it said american airlines. It was very close to me, as it fell from the sky I remember myself jumping into the ocean to try to avoid the jet fuels from burning my flesh off as the plane exploded. Then I woke up. The very next day I check my flight itinerary and the airline this company is flying me on is american airlines. Coincidence? Last time they flew me it was united..so you would think they would use the same airline..

Dream analysis:

Plane falling rapidly: Pit feeling in stomach that one gets when feeling anxiety about the outcome of a situation; sense of failure or guilt; apprehension about the future of a project or direction; anxiety about something.

Watching a plane crash: A sense of emergency; feeling you are aware of an important social or national event. Sensing something difficult happening or having happened in your life, like a divorce or loss of business or love for instance. Can sometimes relate to childhood traumas that make it difficult for you to get your life taking flight.

BRIDGE A link between opposing or different emotions, desires, directions. A way to deal with difficulties. The bridge Often signifies changing from one phase of life to another. So it can mean leaving something behind, like youth. Another meaning is that of a link between people, such as someone you love, or work. A link between yourself and opportunity

Since I can't communicate with the outside world for a possible 6 weeks.. you won't know if my dream is a reality. So once I get back..if I do ..we'll see if I'm dead or alive..

they taught us different was wrong



I've been up to soo much lately It's crazy! I just got back from North Carolina shooting warp tour posters with Tim Sayer, hes the shit!
I leave for NYC ( bamboozle) this weekend so stoked it should be allot of fun! i have a shoot tomorrow and thursday...t. Loads of new photos to upload so keep your eye balls out...i was accepted into a modeling agency so I am sopose to meet with them ..well see what there all about i suppose



so whos goin to bambooooozle! who wants to hang out yipppiee!


ill be at warp tour as well these dates

6-20
6-21
6-25
6-28
6-29
8-9
8-10
8-13
8-14
8-15
8-16
8-17

so if youll be at any of those dates stop by Evey clothing stand and come say hi!

I will be doing signing there as well..times TBA!





xoxo zui

I have no idea whats going on..
seriously what the fuck is going on...secrets everywhere, its like people have these little "clicks" like in highschool the internet is so fucking insane to me, are we back in middle school? did I miss something?

sooo confused unrelated im gonna start to get really morbid and weird its how i am anyways..and no one will understand it blood bath 101

I've been thinking and and thinking and thinking and I'm so over so much shit it makes me sick to think about it. and i cant help think about it cause when i think about it i think and think and the thinking makes me think about obsessing about thinking and then i think about obsessing about thinking. so now i sit and think . think about thinking about it obsess about obsessing about thinking
my head full of conffetii and there's a pinyata on my head

Lots of things factor in, and it isnt factoring into my head. the factor of this fracture isnt a factor. yuckyuckyuck

I shoot last saturday and i thought i was going to die, freezing cold in bra and underwear i was literally shaking i was so cold. it sucked! nyc soon...shooting hanging with requell and lana, steve peru, kencredible <3 drunkybrewster, 3pacs, amazing

I need a room sized closet because this is just out of hand..there's tutus, crowns,pantyhose ,clown vomit falling out of everywhere! I cant walk without tripping over a diamond incrusted bra top, or mettalic booty shorts of some sort

ken agrees to agree with me, when he agrees i know we both agree and when we both agree i know when to stop disagreeing with me
time for a change he says, make your moves i say. It's not gonna work obviously it wont mesh.


i cant figure out how to load photos on this fuckin imac its pissin me off...



i bought a sewing machine today to make booty short skirts, and rock jeans made of rock shirts made of rockstars kickin rocks.




is it worth the time? i dont think so...
no one know what the fuck im talkin about unless your the MOD of lolsqs who i actually talk to now.. or kencredible.


secret secrets aint no fuckin secret cause ive been thinkin about obsessing and obsessing about thinking and thinking about kickin those rocks and gets me thinki this isnt working.

got a phone call the other day and i have top secret information that wont make someone happy but i have to wait to talk to them about it because the secret information isnt gonna be so secret sooner or later if there information becomes reality and i cant help it cause they contacted me and tell me to do these things and for some reason didnt mention anyone else now its got me thikin. " we will meet in nyc "
its a silly thing to begin with but im doing what weve all been trying and ive been trying to do this for a while and that while has been a long while and now its there

im going for it.

I got a IMAC yesterday ..my computer broke completly and im really bummed cause I had tons and tons of videos on it and sooo many photos

So lana and I will do warp tour west coast...dates to be announced. As well as bamboozle right. ( shes doing left i beleive).
Florida was stressful as fuck, but we always manage to have fun...Id'e give details but I hate writing journals im too lazy.

NYC april 11th 12th 13th


check out my new pics, I have a ton of funny photos rt now...im a wild animal..



wolf/rat

I got a IMAC yesterday ..my computer broke completly and im really bummed cause I had tons and tons of videos on it and sooo many photos

So lana and I will do warp tour west coast...dates to be announced. As well as bamboozle right. ( shes doing left i beleive).
Florida was stressful as fuck, but we always manage to have fun...Id'e give details but I hate writing journals im too lazy.

NYC april 11th 12th 13th


check out my new pics, I have a ton of funny photos rt now...im a wild animal..



wolf/rat

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So here I am tryin to relax for the very little time I have to do so...Peter Thomas Roth face mask on...foot mask on, drinking cherry coke out of a wine glass.

My sister from NYC was in town for a little bit the one from drunkybrewster and the group 3 pacs

www.myspace.com/drunkybrewster

www.myspace.com/3pacs

We went to the mall and I bought her this dress from betsey johnson as a late B day present...

I got these in Blue,Off white, Red, peach,and pink

I dont even wear dresses but I do like the idea of them...shrug

 

We went to Coach and I got...



Loads of scarfes and some kicks...

 

I want this bag soooo bad! OMG More than anything its Burberry BUT its 3 grand ..leave it to me to want a bag thats 3 grand! so annoying

Look how cute! sigh

So Florida trip is coming up...we have no idea if were driving or flying..eh were so last minute. But if we do drive who wants to go with us! We need road buddies!!

(please note jared milgrim is a douche)

 

Tomorrow I have to pick John up from the airport he went to vegas ( must be nice) I need to get out there soon! I wanna shop and rage. And rage while I shop. and Shop while I rage. etc

 

So who watches TrashyCrue live on stickam every saturday night? Huh Huh!! If not you should really get into it cause its so wild

 

 

ps. someone help me get that purse, I need it in my life.

 

 

Lana and I leave tomorrow night for LA we arrive at 11 pm Tara Mason is meeting us at the airport then were all going to the hotel to woohoho get gator wild. Lana and I are going to be busy busy!! 1:30 we meet with stickam then 3pm we have out LIVE stickam show at the office! We MIGHT have a special guest as well so keep an eye out!

Then we have a shoot at 6pm should be super duper cute! Another shoot at 9pm

Sunday we meet with Evey from ( evey clothing) to discuss warp tour dates and such then were shooting for her line <3 I love that girl shes so sweet. xoxoxo

We meet with this lovely site owner at 1pm discuss stuff n things

shoot at 3 pm and another possible shoot at 6

 

then we fly back to Virginia!

 

 

 

 

 

Funny how some people can shit talk someone to photographers, designers, fans, and friends, BUT when it comes right down to it they would never say it to your face. Funny how somones so scared of a chick whos 5 feel 90 lbs isnt it. We both know what the deal is, and we both know how truly scared you are. Act like a badass and shit talk on the other side of the united states BUT when I land on your block well see whos a smart ass then wont we? See you soon baby doll.You make shit worse for yourself , why dont you just cut the shit and I'll spare you your cute little face. deal?  If you didn't give a shit about me why is my name still in your fucking mouth? If I didnt know any better i'de say you were a little obsessed... Too bad your not gay .::shrug: : BUT keep doing what your doin...begging for coke in NYC at fashion week and having band guys run trains on you. Ohh lala your so intreging. Ive been trying to drop this shit BUT you dont seem to want to let up. I think you want me to beat your ass..if you care about keeping your modeling career you'll cut the shit right now cause i garantee your face will never look the same if I get a hold of you.

 

On another note lana and me are gonna start shooting

feb16 fed 23rd feb 24th  mar 1st mar 8th mar 15 mar 16  Then we road trip with camera crue whos flying out from the UK to FLORIDA 17,18th ( shoot)  19th ( shoot) 20th 21st 22nd ( then big event in tampa on 22nd)

should be fun. If your in tampa FL weve been hired to travel to various schools to do signings. maybe it will be yours...

 

 

March 18th-23rd the crue will be in Tampa, FL filming, promoting, visiting high schools, doing radio interviews with 98 rock, autograph signings, contests, and more, ending at an on stage appearance at the sundome for the mma match on the 22nd..stay tuned for more details

 

 

 

 

So Im very excited I'm doing well after surgery and I didn't get really sick, ussually my immune system gets really weak and I get super sick. BUT I'm good. Lana and I are about to get serious were gettin down to business this florida trip should be action packed.

I wish I was well enough to fly and stuff, evey wanted me to come out to L.A this weekend to shoot...BUT it's proboly not a good idea. I need a little recover time.

 

Oh and for the record I never said I was going to NY couture show you fucking retard stop being so fucking scared...your pathetic.

 

 

anyways...my skins been amazing lately I would like to thank peterthomas once again..I just cant get over how awesome this stuff makes your face look! It just glows! You can find it at sephoria

What type of skin care products do you use? Any suggestions?

 

xoxo zui

 

Hey Guys... Tomorrow I have surgery and I couldn't be any more scared than I am right now! I'm literally shacking.. It's scheduled for 6:30 am, so I have to leave my house at 4:30 or 5 That is gonna suck soooo bad. I had to shower with only anti bacteria soap and I couldn't use lotion so now my skin feels gross. Pre OP is fucking annoying. ! I'm really scared i'm gonna be give the anestesia and never wake up.

But hey wish me luck!

 

I bailed on a shoot today...whoops. i had the worst headache ever and I was way too tired to look saucy...I'll be out of commission for a few weeks too, maybe i should of done it.

 

I got my nails today and I got so annoyed I wanted to get up and leave. Has this ever happened to you? Your sitting somewhere and your on your phone and the person next to you is obviously listening in? This lady was stairing at me listening in on my whole conversation so I started to talk about really gross stuff to make her uncomfitable. Psh serves her right! She did it for about 20 minutes stright.

 

I need to go to a show I havent been in soo long, the last one was the blood brothers at 930 club in D.C and THAT was a looong time ago. Shows are so different now, i remember when I was 12 I use to take the train into downtown D.C to this old abandoned wearhouse to see gutter punk bands play. It was awesome..and completly different. SIGH I miss those days.

 

*Fun little facts*

I LOVE the smell of skunk

I cant stand to see someone eat ice cream off a cone

I'm slightly obsessed with road kill

I'm horrified of maggots

I only use LUSH bath bubbles

I strickly use Peter Thomas Roth products on my face

and LUSH ocean salt ( stole that secret  from a certain someone)

My new addiction is Juicy Couture i cant stop buying it!

My idol is my sister Callie ( shes in the band drunky brewster I have on my myspace allot)

I'm overly emotional and my feelings get hurt easily

I use to be homeless, and instead of being depressed about it I bummed money and took the grey house bus to random states for weeks at a time

 

Do you have any of these things in common with me? or am i just strange?

 

 

 

Two is a bore three is a fuckin party.

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Erny Suicide, Lana and myself are ready to rage... new Trashylife? Possibly. Same antics.. but they are real this time

 

 

This should be fun.

 

 

I'm back.

Please donate anything you can to help my photographer and most importantly good friend Josh Bender. Him and his family are going thru a hard time right now and he really needs everyones support.

Read this web site...and if you cant help in any finacial way, beleive me sending him a message would be help enough.
<3

The bender web site-
http://please.giveadamnabout.us/help/bender/

Josh bender personal myspace-
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Thank you.

zui

So I'm im a book now...pretty cool The new suicidegirls paper back.

Go get it at borders books, and other book stores near you.

I'm still waiting to hear if im in the 2nd big book..well see.

 

I got my wisdom teeth pulled this morning and It sucks so fucking bad. I really needed it done but jesus I cant eat, it hurts to talk, I'm very sensative to hot/cold liquids. I cant wait till this is over.

I'm terrible right now ::pouts::

LA soon with Erny Suicide, shes good people

stoked

I have nothin fuckin else to say

 

xoxox

 

zui